Dan’s Victory

Nov. 23, 2009

GREAT NEWS
All blood counts are up: white blood from 11/12/09 of .9 to 11/23/09 of 8.2; red blood cell count from 11/12/09 of 28.4 to 11/23/09 to 29.3; and platelets from 11/12/9 of 20 to 11/23/09 to 206. That means all but red blood cell are higher than they were before Nov. 26!!

That also means that I won’t have to see Dr. McCroskey for another month. I will have at least one cymerism blood test before that but that is something I have to have done every other week.

As a result also most of the day I have no belching gas problems, I can walk almost at a normal pace, and I can lean down and straighten back up a number of times in a row without a problem.

Those who have been praying, thank you so very much, and those at my church, as they anointed me with oil and prayed for me according to the book of James in the Bible, thank you! God continues to answer prayer!

I also had a great night of sleep. Up only once and slept until just before Jane got up!

DAN

God’s Will
What is God like?
God is Sovereign: God rules over everything, and He overrules anything or anyone. So we can’t thwort God’s will.

God is Holy: God is great and God is good.

God is gracious: unyielding love toward us, rooted in Himself and not reacting to who we are or what we have done.

What has God said? Read the Principles of His Word.

God wants you Saved – listen to God; hear what He has said.

God wants you Spirit Filled – keep on listening and stop listening to other voices; and start listening to His authority.

God wants you Set Apart to Him.

God wants you Surrendered to Him.

God wants you Serving Him and Others.

God wants you to Say Thanks – in all circumstance we thank Him.

God will allow you to suffer - because this speaks strongly about your faith: how it is growing, as well as how well you understand and have done all of the previous things.

Nov 19 - 22, Thursday - Sunday

Thursday was a good day. I had the appointment with Dr. McCroskey at 11:15 a.m. I checked my phone about 10 a.m. for messages from yesterday and missed three from my twin, Dave. Also missed one from the clinic that asked me to be there at 9:30 a.m. for the zometa infusion - which meant I was already late. So quickly called and they got me a space in just before the doctor appointment. It all worked smoothly. That was pretty easy — and usually on the next day and next two after that my back starts hurting quite a bit. It didn’t this time, but it may by because I was also to take decadron (steroid) along with the zometa pills and that seemed to stop the back pain. That was great! Had a good home group that I was able to lead finally, as I was feeling pretty good. It was a good home group.
Friday was another good day. I have learned to take naps and that has helped a lot. Received a phone call from the Long Term Follow Up Team at the Seattle Cancer Care Alliance reminding me of the Tracrolimus taper schedule (which I already had).
I also received a call from SCCA that I have to watch closely for signs of graft vs host disease (GvH). Because they are starting to think about the donor lymphosite infusion - which is Dick giving more stem cells but without the shots to boost and amount. They won’t know when that will  take place because it totally is determined by my myeloma going into remission. That means I will go through the schedule of heavy chemo for 4 days and four weeks or more between and another round etc. until they can say the myeloma has gone into remission. Then they will need more of Dick’s stem cells so they can have an easier time taking over in my blood, so the myeloma cells keep being killed off. I got all the chores done in the afternoon so when Jane got home (although she was still dizzy from the night before) we went out to dinner (our weekly date) at a place close to here and then relaxed at home watching TV. We still went to bed a little early.
Saturday - I did not have much sleep last night. I had taken dexamethasone for the first time in some time and forgot all about it and wondered why I couldn’t sleep. Jane reminded me that I should have taken a medication I was given to settle down intensity. I did again get a lot done on the computer and billing etc. so it sure wasn’t a waste of time. Coco had woken me in the first place at somewhere between 3:30 a.m. and 4 a.m. and I didn’t go back to bed. We had someone come over to talk about putting in new windows as quite a number of ours keep getting mold on the wood under the windows and always have to be cleaning it off. Also we get a lot of cold air coming in. We found out that both are caused by windows that are no longer allowed to be put in houses - aluminum. So Steve, Jane’s brother, had Penguin windows put in their home and are very pleased with them. They had some specials and so it looks like we’ll have them put in. It is not cheap, but we didn’t want cheap because then we may as well leave in the mold, cold windows. Jane was real concerned about the mold - for my health, and the cold because it will really reduce out heat bill - by as much as 40% guaranteed. And after they showed us how their windows work compared to others, I believe they are right. A guarantee always helps too. We again enjoyed the evening at home.

Sunday I was able to go to the late church service with Jane as my blood counts have gone up.(I asked for a copy of the blood count but forgot about it when the appointment was over, so I don’t know exactly what the numbers are.) We had gone to late service because the electricity went out, but Jane heard me wake up in the night to go to the bathroom and told me I needed to reset my clock. Jane reset her’s too but an hour off! So her alarm went off an hour late, so no early service for us. Second service Pastor asked me up to the front and some others to pray for me. It was an excellent service. Took Jane out for lunch as she still is a bit dizzy when turning her head. I feel pretty good! Have been watching some football. Oh, I have lost my hair on my head, and also my mustache. That is what they said would probably happen because of the heavy chemo. Will continue to work on my doctor schedules and pill schedules and am getting a list done for tomorrow’s shopping so Jane has everything for Thanksgiving, and she doesn’t have school either on Wednesday. Michael, Dawn, Danica, Hannah, Randy, Beth, and hopefully their son, Jason will be joining us.

So the days have gotten much better, with little gas belching and I can walk faster without any pain in my stomach etc. It is great!

DAN

Maybe . .. . we were supposed to meet the ?wrong people before meeting the right ?one so that, when we finally meet the ?right person, we will know how to be ?grateful for that gift. ??Maybe . .. . when the door of happiness ?closes, another opens; but, often ?times, we look so long at the closed ?door that we don’t even see the new ?one which has been opened for us. ??Maybe . .. . it is true that we don’t ?know what we have until we lose it, ?but it is also true that we don’t know ?what we have been missing until it arrives. ??Maybe . .. . the happiest of people ?don’t necessarily have the best of ?everything; they just make the most of ?everything that comes along their way.

Nov. 15 -18, 2009
Sunday - Had to stay at home and was not to go to church. Of course, I watched football during the afternoon. Can’t remember what else I did except the usual keeping up with email etc.
Monday - Blood draw, doctor’s appointment, but didn’t have the neupagin shot as expected. I had two nights (Saturday and Sunday) that I could sleep only occasionally because my lower back hurt no matter how I laid and even had to be careful how I sat. But that was only in the evening and all night - not during the day. I told the doctor and he asked if where it hurt has just above the pelvis and he touched that area. He knew exactly where it was - and then told me we would not do the neupagin shot today. And I had no more problems with it hurting there! Too much neupagin I guess. Also he told me that I am not to take the Revlimid pills this week, nor am I having velcade - which means no chemo this week! I will resume the Revlimid when my platelet count is over 50. I forgot to ask for a copy of my blood counts, so I don’t know what the count is, or the white and red blood cell count. The red must be low because I am to get another transfusion this week. Don’t remember what else I did that day, but I know I was feeling better.
Tuesday - Kept busy all day doing errands and some grocery shopping. Also got a call to go in to have my blood typed again so the blood would be ready for the next day. Also got in the nap and need I really need to take one every day. So I have to be careful not to just keep going. Helped Jane with cutting out some things for her school kids for Thanksgiving. Got to sleep in my own bed too!
Wednesday - Nice to be in my own bed but had to get up every two hours all night to use the bathroom. But I did get back to sleep pretty quickly each time except the 5 a.m. one. Had to be at the place for the blood transfusion at 8:30 a.m. and that is where I am now at 1:15 p.m. It looks like it will be a few more hours yet before it will be done, but I am keeping busy on the computer and will be reading as well and listening to one or two sermons that I missed because I couldn’t go to church - recorded on CD so I could hear them. Will have to make a quick dinner - but already have plans what I will do — a surprise steak for my wife (and myself). I do seem to have my taste pretty well back, and am eating more. On Monday I weighed 164 lbs. but I had heavier clothes on than I had the previous time. Expect to go home and cruise for the evening. I am able now to walk a little faster and when I lean over I don’t always get gas coming up. Progress! God is good!

DAN

The happiest of people don’t necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.

The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; you can’t go forward in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.

When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so at the end, you’re the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.

It’s easier to build a child than to repair an adult…

Nov. 10-14,2009 Tuesday - Saturday

My, oh my, this week has gone fast and am stepping forward! Brief summary:
Tuesday, neupagin shot in the afternoon, and Jane getting a flu shot from her oncologist and the same clinic I was, almost at the same time, but not quite. Have continued to sleep in the boys room as Jane is still getting over a cold. Went out to dinner as I got home after 5 p.m.
Wednesday, another neupagin shot but this time in the morning. I believe it was this day that I worked out some at the fitness center. I couldn’t quite finish as I was getting sort of out of breath, even though I don’t do anything walking or jogging or climbing machines. I was again sleeping in the boy’s room; Jane still isn’t over the cold. I didn’t get to sleep until after 11 p.m and woke at 2 a.m. and didn’t get back to sleep until 5 a.m and up at 6 a.m. Not enough sleep…. really!
Thursday,  lab at 9:15, doctor at 9:30, neupagin shot at 10:15. This time just as I was done, the nurse asked if my wife able to come in because shot for the H1-N1 flu shot for her — because of my condition and her teaching 1st graders. She had come with me but was reading in the car. So I got her and she came in and got the shot! When I had to weigh in I had lost just over a pound from Monday. Although tired I made a dinner of flattened chicken breast with slices of potatoes on both sides of it - fried in a pan on the stove. It was good and Jane said so too. I get out of breath just walking to the kitchen from the family room. (8 steps if I walk normal speed. Until it hurts, I forget how slow I have to walk.)
Friday, I had the neupagin shot at 1:15 p.m so was able to do many of the chores in the morning - “dust” floors, vacuum carpets and rugs, was and dry clothes, clean two bathrooms, and as I do every morning I make our bed that I didn’t sleep in but Jane did, so she can get ready for teaching without having to take the time to do that. Didn’t get dusting furniture, 1/2 bath cleaning, or clothes folding done. i did take an afternoon nap but figured I could do the remainder of the chores on Saturday. I took Jane out for a dinner date - as I generally do on Fridays and walked slooooooow. Then we just relaxed at home the remainder of the evening, although I also repaired a coat of mine, and collected a few more things to take to Salvation Army. I finally got to sleep in our bed again - and had a great night sleep.
Today, Saturday, we both slept in until 7:45 a.m.! Jane did her usual workout at Curves and some gift shopping etc. I went to the fitness center and got sort of out of breath, so again before I was done I had to stop. I had the neupagin shot at 9:30 a.m. and on the way home stopped at Costco for gas and some food, and then to the fitness center. Got the clothes folding done and on Saturdays I get my pills all ready for the coming week. I made a bean soup with 4 kinds of beans, Italian sausage, celery, onions, carrots, chicken broth, shell macaroni; the soup was wonderful! I teacher I previously taught with and coached wrestling with gave me the recipe. Back started getting sore just before dinner. Of course, being Saturday, I watched football as well. Seems to be quite hungry this evening so some chocolate, and black licorice tasted pretty good. Did other things on the computer besides this as Jane and I watched TV. Although feeling pretty good I sure get winded very fast - not even walking normal speed, or even just bending down to get something off the floor and standing back up again. Well, I get another shot tomorrow.
May God give you His best today, as you following Him!

DAN

Don’t  let your worries get the ?best of you; remember, Moses started ?out as a  basket case. ??People are funny; they want  the ?front of the bus, the middle of the road, and the back of the church.   ??Don’t  wait for 6 strong men to take you to  church. ??Forbidden fruits create  many jams. ??God  grades on the cross, not the  curve. ??God  loves everyone, but probably prefers ?”fruits of the spirit” over “religious  nuts!”

Nov. 9, 2009 - Monday

Good night sleep! I put Coco’s “pillow” on the floor of the “boy’s” bedroom where I needed to sleep last night and she stay there until 2 a.m. when I had the usual bathroom time, then she slept on the bed with me, but didn’t move until I got up at 6:50 a.m. So I was able to sleep well!
Had to be at Good Samaritan Infusion (across the hall from my oncologist’s Rainier Physician Office to get the red blood transfusion to boost my red blood cell count. I was scheduled then to walk across the hall and have three other appointments today, but I found out 10  minutes before I was to be there that the transfusion takes 6 hours! So, now having a cell phone I called them and rescheduled for this afternoon - 3:15 for the blood draw, doctor appointment, and infusion. Jane will be at the Rainier Physician office at 2 p.m. to see her oncologist (Dr. Blau)!
I did bring my computer and have it plugged in, so am keeping busy with it. Fell asleep listening to a webcast about multiple myeloma - most was something for doctor’s ‘cause I sure didn’t know what new chemo they talked about was. I am going to see if my doctor wants this information.
Of course, I will also play some games on my computer and they said if I want to watch a movie they have DVD’s available.

Two Wolves

One evening an old Cherokee told his grandson about a battle that goes on inside all people. He said, ‘My son, the battle is between two ‘wolves’ inside us all.

One is Evil. It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego.

The other is Good. It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith.’

The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather: ‘Which wolf wins?’

The old Cherokee simply replied, ‘The one you feed.’

Interesting that God’s Word says this over and over again in different words. Will you serve God and if not, who will you serve? You always have a choice to follow God’s will which is always good, or the temptations of the devil which will always turn on you to be bad? It is your choice. The fruit of the Spirit or the works of the flesh?

DAN

I wrote this on Monday and then didn’t put it on the blog. Sorry.

Nov. 6-8, 2009: Friday - Sunday

Friday all I had was the shot to boost my white blood cell count. I was tired much of the  day - but that’s okay; I could get the rest I needed and I did feel good enough to do all the chores, housework, and Jane and I went out to dinner to a Sheri’s that was pretty sparse in number of people there — so I was safe to be there. I had rented a DVD for the evening as well. Well, maybe I wasn’t very tired after all!

Saturday, I had the neupogen shot again (white blood cell boost), and had to get some blood taken so they would have the red blood cell transfusion on Monday. I had a lot, a lot, a lot of trouble with intestinal gas coming up all day and hurting all the time. I’ve gone through this before, so I just have to deal with it. Unfortunately, when that happens I can’t do very much activity or exercise. But I was able to watch college football most of the day! And sit most of the day. Got a lot of bill stuff done too then. Stayed up too late! Couldn’t sleep in our bed and had to sleep in “the boy’s” bedroom.

Sunday, not a very good night sleep. Coco was bothersome as I slept, then was up at 2 a.m. and then Coco wanted out at 5:25 a.m. and didn’t come back to the door for a half hour! But did get back to sleep for an hour! Couldn’t go to church - doctor’s instructions. Had to get my last neupogen shot at 10:30 a.m. Came home and Jane had gotten back church and we had lunch and played cribbage (I won). Watched the Seahawks win as I worked on financial spending stuff I keep track of. Gas started bad this morning, but I have been eating some yogurt every meal and it seems to be helping. Of course, I am not moving around much either — couch potato — watching football! Hope to get to bed early tonight ‘cause I have a lot going on tomorrow with red blood cell transfusion, lab blood draw, see Dr. McCroskey, and infusion of velcade (chemo) and decadron (steroid) and, of course, the usual pills including now the Revlimid chemo.

God is good and He is keeping my attitude good and proper and positive — at least most of the time!

Have a super, God-blessed day!

DAN

God is not impressed by your abilities, strengths, knowledge, or talents. He is only impressed with one person, His Son. Whoever has Christ has the favor of God. Whoever does not have Christ does not have God’s favor. It does not matter how good you may be, without Christ in your life you are undone. God only shows favor toward His own, and His own come only through His Son. Jesus said, “If anyone thirsts, let him come to Me.” Our education, financial status, color, nationality, or age does not matter. Whosoever will may come to Christ. He is no respecter of persons unto salvation. He desires that none should perish. Therefore, there are no insignificant people in God’s eyes. Everyone is worthy of our efforts. Do not discount anybody. God sent His Son for them, and if they are good enough for Christ, they ought to be good enough for you.
(from The Sonrise Daily Devotional Bible: Success for the Day, Rest Through the Night.)

Nov. 5,2009 - Thursday

Had a very good night sleep. Woke up refreshed even though Coco got me up at 4:50 a.m. (I went into the boy’s room to go back to sleep so as not to bother Jane - Coco slept with me then.)
Got to the clinic and had all the stuff I had yesterday. Did find out that after today and until the next 4-day treatment I will not be taking dexamethasone (decadron) but only the Revlimid. The shot I get yesterday is for boosting my white blood cell count. The doctor let the nurse know to tell me that he is arranging for me to get a red blood cell transfusion in the next couple days as my red blood count it way down, he said.
Don’t know exactly when that will take place yet, but should before I leave the clinic. I’m still there now - 1:17 p.m. Nurse told me I should take the nausea pill earlier today to try to prevent my throwing up again, so I did. And we’ll see!
Got a call from our son, Mark, in Taiwan just after Jane left for work. He wanted to talk to her too. Everything is going great there - more time in prayer with his wife, Samantha, and on his own, and more opportunity coming to preach, plans on taking Chinses now as well. He is still young - will be 39 tomorrow.
Hope to do a little shopping before I get home and get gas for the truck.
I’ll finish this this evening. I did the shopping but did not yet get gas. Did not throw up at all. Was pretty tired while making dinner, and was too tired after dinner to be able to go to home group. Praise God, I have one of the men who is very able to lead. Will be resting the remainder of the evening and going to bed early.

Well, at least tomorrow there is only the shot to boost by white blood cells.

God richly bless you with His love, joy, and peace,

DAN

Some words from C.S. Lewis:

Affection is responsible for nine-tenths of whatever solid and durable happiness there is in our lives.
C. S. Lewis

Aim at heaven and you will get earth thrown in. Aim at earth and you get neither.
C. S. Lewis

An explanation of cause is not a justification by reason.
C. S. Lewis

Can a mortal ask questions which God finds unanswerable? Quite easily, I should think. All nonsense questions are unanswerable.
C. S. Lewis

Nov 4, 2009, Wednesday

Had a great night sleep! So did Jane!
Infusions went fine and got a lot of work done while sitting there from 9 a.m. until 2:30 p.m. Was advised to take a nausea pill before I left. So I did and waited about 5 minutes. Had no trouble getting to the truck and driving home, but it all came up when I got home. Well, at least it was only once this time! In about 10 minutes I felt fine - that sure is a lot better than when I get sick fishing in the ocean!

Did find out some more information about my infusions. The steroid (dexamethason/decadron) I am having infused every one of these four days - Monday - Thursday, but after that I will not be having any decadron for the 10 days before this 4-day process starts again. After the present four days, it still looks like I will not have any infusions, just one shot on Friday to build up my red blood count.

Three days over, one day to go with these heavy doses! Praise the Lord! Everything else seems to continue to improve! Thank you, Jesus. And thank you for your prayers.

DAN

HE IS JESUS WHO IS HE

IN CHEMISTRY, HE TURNED WATER TO WINE.
IN BIOLOGY, HE WAS BORN WITHOUT THE NORMAL CONCEPTION;
IN PHYSICS, HE DISAPPROVED THE LAW OF GRAVITY WHEN HE ASCENDED INTO HEAVEN;

IN ECONOMICS, HE DISAPPROVED THE LAW OF DIMINISHING RETURN BY FEEDING 5000 MEN WITH TWO FISHES & 5 LOAVES OF BREAD;

IN MEDICINE, HE CURED THE SICK AND THE BLIND WITHOUT ADMINISTERING A SINGLE DOSE OF DRUGS,

IN HISTORY, HE IS THE BEGINNING AND THE END;

IN GOVERNMENT, HE SAID THAT HE SHALL BE CALLED WONDERFUL COUNSELOR, PRINCE OF PEACE;

IN RELIGION, HE SAID NO ONE COMES TO THE FATHER EXCEPT THROUGH HIM;

SO. WHO IS HE? HE IS JESUS! JOIN ME AND LET’S CELEBRATE HIM; HE IS WORTHY.

Nov. 2 -3 Monday - Tuesday

Yesterday went pretty well with all the drugs I had pumped into me (infused as they all it).

For those of you who enjoy the details - here they are:

Monday I had Velcade 1.9 mg; cisplatin 9.3 mg; adriamyin 14 mg; cytoxin 558 mg; and etopside (VP16) 56 mg put in me by infusion. These were all part of the chemotherapy.
Also it included 500 ml and 250 ml of sodium choloride (salt water). Also I had 40 mg of Decadron (dexamethasone) - a steroid.

Tuesday I am having the same without the Velcade. and Decadron.

Wednesday, I will have what I had on Tuesday, so will not have the Velcade or Decadron.

Thursday, I will again have what I had on Monday so it will include the Velcade and Decadrom.

At home I am taking, by pill Revlimid 5 mg Monday and the next 13 days after that for a total of 14 days. This is what in the past gave me suck skin problems. This dose is much lower so we pray my skin is not bothered by it.

Then I will have two weeks off everything except, I believe, the Velcade and Decadron which will be infused every Monday and Thursday.

After those 4 weeks I will start over again with the 4 days of the “hard” chemotherapy.

I don’t yet know if I will keep going on the Revlimid again or not. It probably depends on if this treatment, at that point, has dropped the amount of multiple myeloma cancer or not.

If it has gone to the level the doctors want sometime soon after that my brother, Dick, will be asked to give some more stem cells to me, but without the shots that caused him so much trouble before.

Of course I still have all the other medications I have to take at home - morning, lunch, dinner and bedtime. No need to give the names of all of them, but I did get to stop one on November 1. I also now am to take a nausea pill at 3 p.m., the Revelimid pill at 5 p.m, another of the same type of nausea pill at 7 p.m. and then a different nausea pill at bedtime that also will make me sleepy, which last night helped counter the affects of the steroid. Previously, when I took the dexamethasone (decadron) I would be wired all night and get about 2 hours of sleep. I slept through all night last night - Praise the Lord!

I did eat well, just not quite as much and I am feeling pretty well. I still am not able to walk at a slow sleep - it has to be slower than slow - or I get strong gas in my upper intesting and stomach which make my arms and shoulders ache and can even make me throw up. That almost happened this morning. I was told in Seattle that nothing can be done about that until I am off all the drugs I am now taking. So I exercise and walk very, very slow. My legs are feeling strong from the exercises I learned at SCCA, but I don’t get much opportunity to go as fast as my legs want to go because of the stomach gas stuff. My shoulders keep doing better as well.

I am allowed to drive myself places, but I can’t be in crowds - so the doctor said church is out for now, but if I grocery shop I have to go when few are there, and I can go to the fitness center when few are there and I wear gloves and wash my hands afterward.

So things are going well!
On the way home after treatment some stuff didn’t go so well. I had to walk very, very slow. Had a drink of water to take the calcium pill I am suppose to take at noon - it was after 3:30 p.m. I went slowly to the the elevator and a slow walk to the truck. But that short distance upset my stomach and I just had time to get out to the front of the truck and throw up. Had to sit about 10 minutes before I felt good enough to drive. Felt better going home, but when I got home, got out of the truck and into the house, it happened again! Glad to be next to one of our bathrooms. Then as long as I did little or very slow walking just in our family room and kitchen. Did good, however, at dinner and after but have moving very slowly at everything. It may have been partially because I couldn’t take the 3 p.m nausea pill, but I have now taken the 7 p.m. one and will take the 9 p.m. nausea pill also.

This next story is well worth reading!
DAN

Airport Cookies
A young lady was waiting for her flight in the boarding room of a big airport. As she would need to wait many hours, she decided to buy a book to spend her time. She also bought a packet of cookies. She sat down in an armchair, in the VIP room of the airport, to rest and read in peace. Beside the armchair where the packet of cookies lay, a man sat down in the next seat, opened his magazine and started reading. When she took out the first cookie, the man took one also. She just thought” “What a nerve! If I was in the mood I would punch him for daring!” For each cookie she took, the man took one too. This was infuriating her but she didn’t want to cause a scene.

Only one cookie remained, she thought” “Ah… What this abusive man do now?”

Then, the man taking the last cookie, divided it into half, giving her one half. Ah! That was too much! She was much too angry now!

In a huff, she took her book, her things and stormed to the boarding place. When she sat down in her seat, inside the plane, she looked into her purse to take her eyeglasses, and, to her surprise, her packet of cookies was there, untouched, unopened! She fel so ashamed!! She realized that she was wrong … She had forgotten that her cookies were kept in her purse. The man had divided his cookies with her, without feeling angered or bitter . . . while she had been very angry, thinking that she was dividing her cookies with him. And now there was no chance to explain herself…not to apologize.

The Moral of the Story
There are 4 things that you cannot recover:
the stone ……………after the throw!
the word……………..after it’s said!
the occasion………..after the loss!
the time………………after it’s gone!